I am sleeping way too much. I really want to hibernate and stop functioning. But I can't because I have children. I oh so want to escape the harsh reality of it all. I have been indulging in my favorite Trader Joe's comfort foods and good beer and playing lots of Word Search on Facebook.
I decided not to go to church this past Sunday because I did not want to cry around people. Although it is probably the safest place in the world to cry, I just could not make myself get out of bed. I need to look up the three stages of grief. I need to get started on my mother's obituary. I need to get my washer fixed. I need to call Legal Aid.
Not facing reality is a coping mechanism that backfires for me again and again. Going numb and not feeling anything are a few more. They all get me to the same place...stuck
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