Adult Child ( I think I finally get it), Codependent, Low Self Esteem, Needy, Failure to Communicate, Boundaries, Rigid, Black and White Thinking, Magical thinking. Stoic, The Hero, Insecure, False Bravado, Desperate, Lonely, Approval Seeker, Fear of Intimacy, Loyal to a Fault, Feelings of Inadequacy, Fear, Victim, Guilt Ridden, Hurt, Shame, Overreacts to Change, Addicted to Excitement, Fear of Abandonment, Paralyzed Perfectionist (that one really suits me). Psychobabble. Jargon. Buzz Words. Lingo.
I live in fear that someone will find out the "truth" about me. What is the truth you ask? I am a fake, a fraud, a phony and someone is going to shout it out to the world. I am not good enough and constantly fall short of the mark. I bounce around like a pinball doing ten things at once never getting one entirely finished.
I may seem aloof, cold and distant but I am aching to be loved and praised. Don't come too close because I will push you away. I can't let you see the real me, way too scary.
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